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A Litany for Survival

For those of us who live at the shoreline
standing upon the constant edges of decision
crucial and alone
for those of us who cannot indulge
the passing dreams of choice
who love in doorways coming and going
in the hours between dawns
looking inward and outward
at once before and after
seeking a now that can breed
futures
like bread in our children’s mouths
so their dreams will not reflect
the death of ours;

For those of us
who were imprinted with fear
like a faint line in the center of our foreheads
learning to be afraid with our mother’s milk
for by this weapon
this illusion of some safety to be found
the heavy-footed hoped to silence us
For all of us
this instant and this triumph
We were never meant to survive.

And when the sun rises we are afraid
it might not remain
when the sun sets we are afraid
it might not rise in the morning
when our stomachs are full we are afraid
of indigestion
when our stomachs are empty we are afraid
we may never eat again
when we are loved we are afraid
love will vanish
when we are alone we are afraid
love will never return
and when we speak we are afraid
our words will not be heard
nor welcomed
but when we are silent
we are still afraid

So it is better to speak
remembering
we were never meant to survive.

Notes

Pessoa was haunted by everything that never came to be; Audre Lorde writes from the other side of that uncertainty, where fear is already woven into ordinary life and even speaking carries the knowledge that it may change nothing. Silence can feel like protection when the world has taught you to be afraid, but it also asks you to live inside that fear indefinitely. Lorde’s final insistence on speech comes from recognizing that safety was never guaranteed in the first place. October’s decay becomes something we can resist: when certainty, security, and even hope begin to fall away, the voice can remain and sometimes survival begins with using it. #October #AudreLorde #Survival #Existentialism #Poetry

About the author

Audre Lorde ↗

Audre Lorde was an American writer, professor, philosopher, intersectional feminist, poet, and civil rights activist. She was a self-described "Black, lesbian, feminist, socialist, mother, warrior, poet" who dedicated her life and talents to confronting all forms of injustice and oppression. She believed that there could be "no hierarchy of oppressions" among "those who share the goals of liberation and a workable future for our children".